Some things are better late never,
So is this entry.
Everything starts from a point of time,
Whether one realize it or not.
Sometimes I wish I can tell her this. "I love you". Someone I can only admire but could not express to her.
It all started back from the very last year and I did not realize when did I fall for her. She is the girl I wish to protect, care but very often I had no choice but to do it in a subtle manner without people realizing.
I do admit, seeing her is the happiest moment but such moment only last for a very short while. Yes, I do not see her very often as we were far apart separated by mountains and sea. But her existence in my heart remains everyday. What can I do?
If you would ask me why I lover her, I can only tell you this, "Words can't describe why". She is 6 years younger than I am. Much energetic than I am. Much shorter than I am. Although I always tease her about the height, I never meant it. I just want to get closer to her.
Last Christmas was another Christmas to remember. We had a gift exchange session where another of our colleague pulled off dirty tricks to match us for gift exchange. Upon receiving her wish list, I told to myself to fullfil the hardest of them 3 written in the list which is to get the Shell Lego Tanker. I remember it was one fine afternoon where I drove back to Kuala Lumpur from Penang. Knowing that the Lego set was selling like a hotcake, I expected all Shell station to run out of stock. Along the journey, I Googled all the Shell stations in Penang, Perak and Selangor. I called every station asking for the stock availability. As expected, all Shell station ran out of stock. For those that wasn't reachable, I drove there to ask but luck wasn't on my side. Finally, I went back to KL and searched online for seller only to bought from a seller for RM 60. Happily, the gift was handed to her by another colleague of mine.
When she's happy, I will be.
Over the months till now, I've tried finding opportunities to spend time with her by coming up north to Penang. Supporting her in her work full time without her realizing. I will love to make her life very much easier yet challenging at the same time as I can see that she is a girl who pretty much have desire for challenge.
However, I somehow felt that I can't match her due to the many disadvantages I had over her. This further made me felt....................
03/06/2016
